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[ he squeezes his eyes shut, hating how indecisive he suddenly feels about all this. it's not his feelings he questions but this place. it could take everything they have away from them without a second thought, and... prompto doesn't know if he can do that again. he doesn't know if he can do that to kara either. still — ]

Yeah, me too. I just... [ the terror he feels in those few seconds is unreal. ] I wanna stay with you too, but this place is – I don't know what I'd do if I lost you because of the way stuff is here. Or if you had to go through that... [ he breathes softly, his own heart racing just as loud and fast. ] But I guess that's the whole risk you take being with someone, huh?

( it's not hard to think about. after all, not long ago she was convinced that she might not see him again or, if she did, that he might not remember her. it's a thought that lurks in the back of her mind and she can't help but swallow harshly as he speaks.

he's right, she knows this. still she can't help the flush of color that floods her features as he finishes. in the end, she can't help but chuckle with a slight shake of her head. )

I don't know, I've never been with someone before. ( surprise. ) But I'd like to see where it might take us.

[ prompto forces himself to take a breath, drawing back long enough to look at her. surprisingly, he's not embarrassed to be having this conversation with her. his cheeks aren't red, like they usually would be, but there is a sadness behind his eyes that almost threatens to overtake the way he smiles at her. soft, sweet, understanding. he wants to reassure her, but it's kind of like making a contract too; there are things they definitely need to talk about. ]

Well, it's not all that different than the kinda stuff we do now. But, um... [ he bites at his bottom lip. ] Does that mean you just wanna be with me or – I dunno. This is so awkward. [ his own chuckle is nervous. ] Being here makes it really hard for that kind of thing, like, all the time.

( the sadness lingering in his gaze is hard to miss. it's a subtle but notable difference from the usual and she doesn't know how to help make it better or if pressing this is just making it all the worse. with another shake of her head, she tilts her head up and presses a small, feather-light kiss against his forehead. )

Then I don't think anything has to change. I know how... ( she breathes in, humming in thought and considers her words. ) I know how difficult this place would make something like that. It wouldn't be, um, fair to either of us trying to do something like that, I think.

( hmm. this is a little on the side of confusing for her. ) We can still be together but... well, nothing change, right?

[ he doesn't really know how it's supposed to work either, honestly. if he hadn't been here and he'd met kara somewhere else, there wouldn't be any question as to what he wanted with her. but with everything that happens in the city, prompto knows she's right; it wouldn't be fair to either of them. faithfulness is such a tricky concept in a place like this, and he appreciates her trying to figure it out. this is why he likes being with her so much, he thinks. among other things. ]

We can still be together, but we talk to each other about stuff? Like, about anything? [ it'll be harder because they're both dominants, so it's not like they could ever be with each other that way either. ] I think we can figure it out as long as we do that. [ which is pretty optimistic, all things considered, and because they're so close from when she'd kissed his forehead, prompto leans in to kiss her cheek. ] What do you think?

[ it's a small compromise, but he had faith they'd work it all out. ]

( most of her current memories are of duplicity. back home, it was barely a weekend's worth of event and it feels like her newness to, well... everything leaves her awkwardly floating out at sea. yet prompto makes it sound easy, well easier and she nods with a happy hum coming from her throat at the kiss to her cheek. )

I think that sounds like a good place because, you're right, as long as we can talk to one another it should be fine. ( she seems terribly pleased anyway. ) And I'm sure there's little things we can do for one another to make things special.

[ admittedly, he's not the best at talking about things, but he does try if it's important. prompto thinks kara is important, and he wants to prove that he can be someone she can rely on despite the circumstances they have to deal with every day in the city. and so, this time, when he draws back to look at her, there's a faint blush staining his cheeks. ]

Cool. [ wow, he sounds like a dork. ] I mean, yeah. Yeah. It'll be really fun. I've never – [ how does he explain this without sound like a complete idiot? he ducks his head a little in an attempt to collect his thoughts. ] This is the first time I've ever really, um, been with anyone. Like this.

( in turn, she gives him a smile in its more familiar brightness and gives his hands a soft squeeze. if anything, she wants to prove that she can also be someone that he can rely on if needed despite all the strange that has become their everyday here in the city. it's nice to see the flush of color to his face though and chuckles, clearly happy. )

Then I guess we'll both be learning as we go along. ( she glances off briefly, considering her thoughts before leaning in again and placing a soft, chaste kiss against his lips. ) But I think we'll be just fine, we'll figure it out together.

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