[Nero is stuck between a rock and a hard place where not behaving normally could bother Prompto but behaving too normally my might trigger him. It’s a dance he’s have to figure out quickly to fix how things were between them now. Assuming they could be fixed.
He suppresses those feelings again, and figuratively charges forward with his plan to not so much wine, but definitely dine his boyfriend.]
Both at once works. [That’s truly the best option when they can put off choosing all together. Nero sits down to arrange what he wants on his plate, using the remote to turn the TV on before any eating actually goes on.]
I doubt any of that stuff is actually scary. Real life is scarier.
[ Prompto sits next to him, keeping a fraction of space in case Nero doesn't actually want to be close. All of this still feels incredibly weird to him. ]
Oh come on! Some stuff can be scary. [ Probably not a good topic to be on, but whatever. ] You know, like ghosts and goblins and other crawly things...
[ There's a moment he almost blurts out 'monsters', but in real life, those are definitely a hell of a lot scarier than whatever they could come up with in a movie. Still, he settles back to eat, picking at what's on his plate as he watches Nero and the TV, trying to read the situation and hopefully not make it more awkward than it already is. ]
[If they're just eating, Nero doesn't mind being close enough that their arms touch every so often. It's likely the closest Nero can get without becoming afraid of fucking up.]
Those aren't real. Demons are real, and I kill those--like as my occupation. [They did look awful and unsettling sometimes, but never scary. Being alone was scary for him. Not so much fictional creatures.] Do ghosts and stuff exist back home for you?
[There's also the matter that if there are monsters on TV being scary, it can be turned off. Real life didn't work that way.]
[ There's a soft sigh, sitting quietly for a moment as he tries to figure out what to do. It still feels weird to him, and he doesn't know how he's going to manage a whole night of this. But he's determined to try, shaking his head a little and then hesitating. ]
We have daemons too, but they're... I dunno. They can be pretty creepy, especially if you find 'em in a dungeon or some ancient tomb. [ Oh yeah. He remembers that all too well, and it's something he'd rather not talk about right now. But if it gets Nero to talk to him... ] Let's watch the other channel for a while.
[ Since that definitely seems to be more Nero's style anyway. ]
I know you have demons. I meant like spirits of the dead! [He lifts his arms to make spooky ghost sounds that he's only ever seen on TV, but Prompto doesn't seem particularly entertained.
Nero takes a bite of food, and is about to ask if Prompto things places can be haunted when the blond suggests a change in channel. He nods right away and grabs the remote to change it. Maybe he should try not to talk through this one so much? For now he just eats in silence, trying hard not to ask a bunch of question just to fill the silence.]
[ The awkwardness is so sharp that he can practically taste it, leaning forward to set his plate aside as he tries to decide what he wants to do.
This isn't them. He doesn't know a day they've ever felt this weird around each other, even when things had been strange in Duplicity, and so, with a breath, Prompto decides to Nero's plate too so he can climb into his lap. This way, he's forced to look at him, reaching up to cup his face. ]
Can we talk about this? I wasn't trying to make it worse.
[Nero was willing to keep trying to act normal for as long as it took, but worrying about small talk wasn't really accomplishing anything. It was just spending more time avoiding the things that they didn't have answers to. They were stuck in a cycle, but thankfully Prompto chose to disrupt it a little.]
I want to talk about it.
[Going from having trouble keeping a conversation going with Prompto to having him in his lap like everything was fine gives him a little whiplash, but he's determined to focus. He rests his hands on the blond's thighs and looks directly at him.]
I think I can manage to do that without freaking out again. I've been practicing.
[ He shakes his head, not wanting to really delve too much into that. Maybe he's been talking with V or with whoever else he hangs out with when he's not home. Prompto doesn't want to pry, and he bites at his lip, gaze dropping for a second or two before he looks at him again. His fingers rub over Nero's jaw and eventually settle on his shoulder. ]
I just... I wanna know what it's going to take for this [ he gestures between them ] to not feel like we've never been together. Is there something you want me to do?
Yeah, so we don't have to worry about me changing suddenly again.
[What else would he be doing besides sulking and working on trying to fix the thing that ruined everything in the first place? He takes a long drawn out breath and then exhales in a sigh.]
Well, nothing's changed as far as how I feel. I still want to be with you. I just don't know how I can help? Do I give you space and time? Do I pester you to come back? Right now I'm trying to be somewhere in between and it's.. weird. [He has to laugh, though. It did feel like they'd never been together.]
I just want to know what you need from me, Prompto. I'm okay working toward something, but if we're working toward more weirdness, I don't know..
I don't know what I need. Maybe that's why it's all messed up. [ And it's not as if he hasn't thought about it. All he has is time, and with the distance between them, he knows he just misses Nero. ] I wanna come home, but... I guess I don't want you to have to worry about that, uh, Devil Trigger? And it wasn't you. It was just –
[ Prompto shrugs weakly and leans forward to rest face against his shoulder. ]
I can wait for you to figure that out as long as you need. I guess I just want to know that after the wait, we can be together again. Something reassuring that it's not always gonna be like this. I've finally found out how awkward was too awkward for me, and it was that.
[He laughs, shaking his head and moving his arms (that are all flesh and bone!) to hug Prompto closer against him. It feels good after all the weird shit.]
Shut up. I would have freaked out too, anyone would. So don't apologize for it. Buy yeah, I can control it a little better now. At least as far as whether or not I change. [At least during day to day activities. Not so much the sex part, but Nero's not trying to get ahead of himself here.]
I'm sorry I freaked you out and hurt you. I never want to do that again.
But what if I say everything's fine, and it ends up being the opposite? [ It's muffled against him. ] I don't wanna promise that we'll be together and make you feel bad if we aren't.
[ Not that he thinks that will be the case, but he's thought about every sort of scenario, always hoping for the best one. He knows he couldn't disappoint Nero though, curling his arms around him and sinking into his lap so that the embrace feels more secure. Maybe later he'll marvel at the fact he's holding him like this, but for now, Prompto simply soaks it up. ]
I mean, I'm not saying we're not gonna be. You know what I'm trying to get at. [ He hopes? ] That's why I wanted to stay tonight. I missed being with you.
[ Even if being with Nero in a sexual way is still a little apprehensive for him. Maybe if he's in control it won't matter so much? Best not to rush into it head-first though. ]
I'm going to feel bad breaking up with you no matter what, so I guess whether or not you can reassure me right now makes no difference in the long run. Maybe all we can do is worry about right now?
[That scenario feels more likely the longer he spends without Prompto even though it's the last thing he wants. He thought he could stay in an uncomfortably weird relationship as long as he needed to if in the end he knows it'll be okay, but Prompto can't promise him that, and it isn't anyone's fault. He appreciates that he's being honest and not just saying what he thinks Nero might want to hear.]
Yeah. I know what you mean. It's a possibility. It sucks, but it's how it is. I'm trying to be better about how I handle stuff. Donno if it'll always work, but for now, I'm calm. See?
[He runs his hand over Prompto's back a couple times. No claws.]
I missed you too. I always miss you. [For some reason he can't shake the feeling that this might be the last time they get to be close like this.]
[ His voice drops a little, clearly uncertain as he leans back to look at him. Is that what Nero had been thinking about all this time? That they'd never get back to how things were and everything between them would just continue to be awkward and strained? Maybe... maybe that had been why he'd been avoiding all of this?
...no. That can't be it. He just needed time to get comfortable with the idea of being close to Nero again, and no amount of missing him was going to help with that if he just continued to avoid it all. It's a worrying sort of pressure that begins to build in his chest, trying not to think anything of it but always unsure they'll start arguing. He shifts a bit, dragging a hand through his hair. ]
Do you – I know I'm not always the best at doing stuff like this, but if you think we should take a break...
[ He can definitely feel that soft burn at the corners of his eyes, and Prompto already hates this. ]
It's a possibility like you said just now. I want to be together, obviously, but we might not be.
[Prompto has never said so outright, but he must have considered how much less of a burden a relationship without Nero would be.
And with their last conversation going poorly after Prompto pointed out he wasn't sure things would ever not be weird between them and not knowing if he'd come back home permanently, it was hard for him not to think that way. Which is why he even bothered mentioning wanting a little reassurance. If even that wasn't happening..
He shakes his head, refusing to get caught up in that negative thought pattern again.]
If you think it'll help. It feel like we've been doing that this past week anyway. [Nero's not thrilled about the suggestion, but like he said he's willing to do whatever it takes to have them get back to what they had before.]
[ He's back to that initial feeling of frustration and fear, the one where he never comes back here once he leaves. The one where he isn't with Nero, that they're not even friends, and because of what? Because he couldn't handle something as simple as what his boyfriend actually is? Does that make him a hypocrite? There are just too many questions and not enough answers, sitting quietly for what seems like an eternity before everything just breaks. ]
Has any of this helped? [ Prompto forces his voice to remain as steady as he can make it. ] I don't wanna keep making all the choices, Nero. It's not just me. It's you too.
[ So does that mean he's been selfish this entire time? He squeezes his eyes shut. ]
Maybe this was a bad idea. [ As much as he hates to say it. ]
[Nero wants to say no. It hasn't helped at all, and that being apart from Prompto is pointless if they want to be with each other. But, on the more grounded, realistic side, it's helped him in a lot of other ways. He's learning to control his abilities, he's learning to not be so codependent, and he's learning that if they did break up that maybe it wouldn't be the end of the world.
They had their moments. Most of which were incredibly good, but if they couldn't get back to a place where that was possible again, he's learned that he can't cling to Prompto out of selfishness if it would mean only one of them was happy. Either they both were, or no deal.]
Which part? I don't know what you're asking me. My choice has never changed. I want you to come back home, I want things to be back to normal. Our normal. The only difference is that now I don't want that if it means you'll be unhappy.
[ It feels like goodbye, and he doesn't know what to do about it. ]
The part where I came over. Or maybe the part where I thought we'd be okay. [ He clenches his teeth a little. Does he even have any right to be this upset about what's happening? What's even going on? ] This doesn't feel okay to me. I know I'm hurting you.
[ Because even if Nero's Devil Trigger had scared him, all of the scratches and physical trauma had long since disappeared. So, how is he any better if he's not willing to come back and make everything normal again? Why can't everything just be easy? Why couldn't he grab Nero by the shirt and drag him to bed so they could make up the way they always do? ]
And nothing I really say is gonna make it better either. [ No, that's not good enough. He lifts a hand to rub at the side of his cheek. It's not a compromise by any means, but he's going to make himself do it. ] If you want me here, I'll try harder to be here.
If you thought it would be okay, you never really communicated that. [Nero guesses this is what it takes to get that out of Prompto for some reason. It's frustrating, but he doesn't really have room for frustration when things seem so up in the air. He feels like he's holding his breath waiting for confirmation that it was going to end.]
Prompto, I'm a mess. I'm always hurting. I'm pretty much used to it. [Everyone leaves him. He's never good enough. All the other things he tells himself over and over that most people don't know about.]
For once I'm not asking you to make it better. [Nero can see that there's something else Prompto isn't saying, so he reaches up to pull that hand away from his cheek and holds it instead.] I always want you here. Just...not if you don't want to be. I can be strong on my own if you need to be without me. Like I keep saying, I can wait for you to be ready. Don't..don't just do it if you're forcing yourself to make me happy.
[ The moment Nero takes his hand is the moment Prompto feels everything overwhelm and break open, keeping his eyes shut as he leans forward to press his face into the other's shoulder and then his chest. He doesn't want to cry, but it's not like he can help it if it happens, his other hand fisting in Nero's shirt to hold him close. Now, more than ever, he knows he couldn't leave him, and if that ruins them both, then so be it. ]
That's not how it's supposed to be. [ The words are soft, sniffing in an attempt to keep his composure. ] We should lean on each other, especially when something's wrong. I can't... I don't want to give up on this because we couldn't figure it out. Please —
[ He honestly doesn't know what he's even trying to say now. Mostly, he's just bothered by the idea that Nero suffers even when they're together. ]
I want to be here. I want to be with you. I guess I really do need more time though. [ Not a lot, just some. ] But that doesn't mean I don't wanna spend time with you.
[Oh no, not boyfriend tears. He's weak against those no matter what the situation. Nero's heart feels like it's being squeezed when Prompto presses his face to his chest. The sniffling is what gives him away, but he doesn't know what to do to comfort him. All he can offer is a tight squeeze as his arms hold the blond closer against him.]
I know. I want it to be that way, but I'm always the one leaning on you. Every time. You shouldn't have to carry my burdens all he time. I want to help carry yours too. Okay?
[Since Prompto's face is so well tucked away, Nero rests his face on top of unruly strands of hair.]
Then take whatever time you need. I'm gonna want you as long as you'll have me, so say the word when you're ready to come back. I would wait a dozen lifetimes for you, asshole, so please...don't cry. Okay?
[He brings Prompto's hand to his face to kiss it quickly.] I love you.
[ It's sweet, all things considered. Even if Prompto doesn't think it should be like this since he's the one causing all this unnecessary drama, he still clings to it and holds onto Nero as tightly as he can with one arm. There will be plenty of time to figure it all out for real when there isn't so much stress pulling at them, smothering the strangled little laugh that escapes him at being called an asshole. Classic Nero, but at least it's something familiar. ]
Yeah... [ No real promises on actually crying though. ] I love you too.
[ There's no tension strung through him when he says those words, still hesitant but very much spoken. Prompto knows he doesn't say that enough either, but every time he does, it opens him up to the possibility that Nero won't be here with him in the following days. It also sounds incredibly strange saying it out loud, he's found, but if it's what Nero needs, then Prompto will give it to him. Because that's how relationships work. Right? ]
Would it be weird if we stayed like this all night? [ He might be exaggerating a little, buuut. ]
[That laughter had to be a good sign. It was the best he’s gotten in a long time, so he’d take it. Maybe they were going to be okay after all.
And then Prompto drops an L-bomb and Nero becomes a jumbled mess, stumbling over his words awkwardly when he tries to respond. Clearly it was the last thing he expected to hear. Unable to think of anything other than repeating those words right back at Prompto, he lifts up his boyfriend’s face to kiss him.
It’s hard and needy, but nothing too intense for obvious reasons. He just didn’t know how else to express himself in the heat of the moment.]
My legs would fall asleep eventually, but I’d be okay with it. I figured you’d want to sleep in your own bed again, but I guess my lap is comfortable too.
[ He's not expecting the kiss, freezing up for a moment before he relaxes into the contact. That, too, he should have expected, and at least it doesn't bother him to do it. If it had, he wouldn't have known what to do then, but Prompto slowly presses close, encouraging Nero to kiss him again just before he chuckles softly between them. ]
Nah, it's not that. I just want you to hold me for a while.
[ Admittedly, it's probably pretty sappy, but he just wants to feel regular, normal Nero against him and not... yeah. The thought causes him to shiver for a second, shifting in Nero's lap to lean a little harder into him. He has to make up for lost time since it's been forever since the last time they were together. ]
I can hold you in bed later if you wanna trade. [ So Nero gets a turn at being the little spoon. ]
[Nero makes sure not to take it any further than that. This is fine. Holding Prompto is fine. He doesn't need to convince himself of it, but he does need to repeat the words in his head to stop himself from being greedy for more.]
I can hold you as long as you want.
[His hands smooth over the back of Prompto's shirt idly as he just quietly appreciates being able to feel his breathing. And if he closes his eyes, even his heartbeat. Or is that his own?]
Yeah, I've been looking forward to being able to sleep beside you again. [He admits that a bit sheepishly. Not usually one to sleep through the night properly anyway, not having Prompto beside him made it worse. No one to look at when he couldn't get back to bed, and definitely not having any arms or legs draped over him made it more tricky to fall asleep in the first place.]
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He suppresses those feelings again, and figuratively charges forward with his plan to not so much wine, but definitely dine his boyfriend.]
Both at once works. [That’s truly the best option when they can put off choosing all together. Nero sits down to arrange what he wants on his plate, using the remote to turn the TV on before any eating actually goes on.]
I doubt any of that stuff is actually scary. Real life is scarier.
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Oh come on! Some stuff can be scary. [ Probably not a good topic to be on, but whatever. ] You know, like ghosts and goblins and other crawly things...
[ There's a moment he almost blurts out 'monsters', but in real life, those are definitely a hell of a lot scarier than whatever they could come up with in a movie. Still, he settles back to eat, picking at what's on his plate as he watches Nero and the TV, trying to read the situation and hopefully not make it more awkward than it already is. ]
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Those aren't real. Demons are real, and I kill those--like as my occupation. [They did look awful and unsettling sometimes, but never scary. Being alone was scary for him. Not so much fictional creatures.] Do ghosts and stuff exist back home for you?
[There's also the matter that if there are monsters on TV being scary, it can be turned off. Real life didn't work that way.]
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We have daemons too, but they're... I dunno. They can be pretty creepy, especially if you find 'em in a dungeon or some ancient tomb. [ Oh yeah. He remembers that all too well, and it's something he'd rather not talk about right now. But if it gets Nero to talk to him... ] Let's watch the other channel for a while.
[ Since that definitely seems to be more Nero's style anyway. ]
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Nero takes a bite of food, and is about to ask if Prompto things places can be haunted when the blond suggests a change in channel. He nods right away and grabs the remote to change it. Maybe he should try not to talk through this one so much? For now he just eats in silence, trying hard not to ask a bunch of question just to fill the silence.]
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This isn't them. He doesn't know a day they've ever felt this weird around each other, even when things had been strange in Duplicity, and so, with a breath, Prompto decides to Nero's plate too so he can climb into his lap. This way, he's forced to look at him, reaching up to cup his face. ]
Can we talk about this? I wasn't trying to make it worse.
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I want to talk about it.
[Going from having trouble keeping a conversation going with Prompto to having him in his lap like everything was fine gives him a little whiplash, but he's determined to focus. He rests his hands on the blond's thighs and looks directly at him.]
I think I can manage to do that without freaking out again. I've been practicing.
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[ He shakes his head, not wanting to really delve too much into that. Maybe he's been talking with V or with whoever else he hangs out with when he's not home. Prompto doesn't want to pry, and he bites at his lip, gaze dropping for a second or two before he looks at him again. His fingers rub over Nero's jaw and eventually settle on his shoulder. ]
I just... I wanna know what it's going to take for this [ he gestures between them ] to not feel like we've never been together. Is there something you want me to do?
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[What else would he be doing besides sulking and working on trying to fix the thing that ruined everything in the first place? He takes a long drawn out breath and then exhales in a sigh.]
Well, nothing's changed as far as how I feel. I still want to be with you. I just don't know how I can help? Do I give you space and time? Do I pester you to come back? Right now I'm trying to be somewhere in between and it's.. weird. [He has to laugh, though. It did feel like they'd never been together.]
I just want to know what you need from me, Prompto. I'm okay working toward something, but if we're working toward more weirdness, I don't know..
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I don't know what I need. Maybe that's why it's all messed up. [ And it's not as if he hasn't thought about it. All he has is time, and with the distance between them, he knows he just misses Nero. ] I wanna come home, but... I guess I don't want you to have to worry about that, uh, Devil Trigger? And it wasn't you. It was just –
[ Prompto shrugs weakly and leans forward to rest face against his shoulder. ]
Sorry I freaked out.
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[He laughs, shaking his head and moving his arms (that are all flesh and bone!) to hug Prompto closer against him. It feels good after all the weird shit.]
Shut up. I would have freaked out too, anyone would. So don't apologize for it. Buy yeah, I can control it a little better now. At least as far as whether or not I change. [At least during day to day activities. Not so much the sex part, but Nero's not trying to get ahead of himself here.]
I'm sorry I freaked you out and hurt you. I never want to do that again.
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[ Not that he thinks that will be the case, but he's thought about every sort of scenario, always hoping for the best one. He knows he couldn't disappoint Nero though, curling his arms around him and sinking into his lap so that the embrace feels more secure. Maybe later he'll marvel at the fact he's holding him like this, but for now, Prompto simply soaks it up. ]
I mean, I'm not saying we're not gonna be. You know what I'm trying to get at. [ He hopes? ] That's why I wanted to stay tonight. I missed being with you.
[ Even if being with Nero in a sexual way is still a little apprehensive for him. Maybe if he's in control it won't matter so much? Best not to rush into it head-first though. ]
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[That scenario feels more likely the longer he spends without Prompto even though it's the last thing he wants. He thought he could stay in an uncomfortably weird relationship as long as he needed to if in the end he knows it'll be okay, but Prompto can't promise him that, and it isn't anyone's fault. He appreciates that he's being honest and not just saying what he thinks Nero might want to hear.]
Yeah. I know what you mean. It's a possibility. It sucks, but it's how it is. I'm trying to be better about how I handle stuff. Donno if it'll always work, but for now, I'm calm. See?
[He runs his hand over Prompto's back a couple times. No claws.]
I missed you too. I always miss you. [For some reason he can't shake the feeling that this might be the last time they get to be close like this.]
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[ His voice drops a little, clearly uncertain as he leans back to look at him. Is that what Nero had been thinking about all this time? That they'd never get back to how things were and everything between them would just continue to be awkward and strained? Maybe... maybe that had been why he'd been avoiding all of this?
...no. That can't be it. He just needed time to get comfortable with the idea of being close to Nero again, and no amount of missing him was going to help with that if he just continued to avoid it all. It's a worrying sort of pressure that begins to build in his chest, trying not to think anything of it but always unsure they'll start arguing. He shifts a bit, dragging a hand through his hair. ]
Do you – I know I'm not always the best at doing stuff like this, but if you think we should take a break...
[ He can definitely feel that soft burn at the corners of his eyes, and Prompto already hates this. ]
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[Prompto has never said so outright, but he must have considered how much less of a burden a relationship without Nero would be.
And with their last conversation going poorly after Prompto pointed out he wasn't sure things would ever not be weird between them and not knowing if he'd come back home permanently, it was hard for him not to think that way. Which is why he even bothered mentioning wanting a little reassurance. If even that wasn't happening..
He shakes his head, refusing to get caught up in that negative thought pattern again.]
If you think it'll help. It feel like we've been doing that this past week anyway. [Nero's not thrilled about the suggestion, but like he said he's willing to do whatever it takes to have them get back to what they had before.]
I'll do anything you want.
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Has any of this helped? [ Prompto forces his voice to remain as steady as he can make it. ] I don't wanna keep making all the choices, Nero. It's not just me. It's you too.
[ So does that mean he's been selfish this entire time? He squeezes his eyes shut. ]
Maybe this was a bad idea. [ As much as he hates to say it. ]
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They had their moments. Most of which were incredibly good, but if they couldn't get back to a place where that was possible again, he's learned that he can't cling to Prompto out of selfishness if it would mean only one of them was happy. Either they both were, or no deal.]
Which part? I don't know what you're asking me. My choice has never changed. I want you to come back home, I want things to be back to normal. Our normal. The only difference is that now I don't want that if it means you'll be unhappy.
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The part where I came over. Or maybe the part where I thought we'd be okay. [ He clenches his teeth a little. Does he even have any right to be this upset about what's happening? What's even going on? ] This doesn't feel okay to me. I know I'm hurting you.
[ Because even if Nero's Devil Trigger had scared him, all of the scratches and physical trauma had long since disappeared. So, how is he any better if he's not willing to come back and make everything normal again? Why can't everything just be easy? Why couldn't he grab Nero by the shirt and drag him to bed so they could make up the way they always do? ]
And nothing I really say is gonna make it better either. [ No, that's not good enough. He lifts a hand to rub at the side of his cheek. It's not a compromise by any means, but he's going to make himself do it. ] If you want me here, I'll try harder to be here.
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Prompto, I'm a mess. I'm always hurting. I'm pretty much used to it. [Everyone leaves him. He's never good enough. All the other things he tells himself over and over that most people don't know about.]
For once I'm not asking you to make it better. [Nero can see that there's something else Prompto isn't saying, so he reaches up to pull that hand away from his cheek and holds it instead.] I always want you here. Just...not if you don't want to be. I can be strong on my own if you need to be without me. Like I keep saying, I can wait for you to be ready. Don't..don't just do it if you're forcing yourself to make me happy.
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That's not how it's supposed to be. [ The words are soft, sniffing in an attempt to keep his composure. ] We should lean on each other, especially when something's wrong. I can't... I don't want to give up on this because we couldn't figure it out. Please —
[ He honestly doesn't know what he's even trying to say now. Mostly, he's just bothered by the idea that Nero suffers even when they're together. ]
I want to be here. I want to be with you. I guess I really do need more time though. [ Not a lot, just some. ] But that doesn't mean I don't wanna spend time with you.
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I know. I want it to be that way, but I'm always the one leaning on you. Every time. You shouldn't have to carry my burdens all he time. I want to help carry yours too. Okay?
[Since Prompto's face is so well tucked away, Nero rests his face on top of unruly strands of hair.]
Then take whatever time you need. I'm gonna want you as long as you'll have me, so say the word when you're ready to come back. I would wait a dozen lifetimes for you, asshole, so please...don't cry. Okay?
[He brings Prompto's hand to his face to kiss it quickly.] I love you.
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Yeah... [ No real promises on actually crying though. ] I love you too.
[ There's no tension strung through him when he says those words, still hesitant but very much spoken. Prompto knows he doesn't say that enough either, but every time he does, it opens him up to the possibility that Nero won't be here with him in the following days. It also sounds incredibly strange saying it out loud, he's found, but if it's what Nero needs, then Prompto will give it to him. Because that's how relationships work. Right? ]
Would it be weird if we stayed like this all night? [ He might be exaggerating a little, buuut. ]
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And then Prompto drops an L-bomb and Nero becomes a jumbled mess, stumbling over his words awkwardly when he tries to respond. Clearly it was the last thing he expected to hear. Unable to think of anything other than repeating those words right back at Prompto, he lifts up his boyfriend’s face to kiss him.
It’s hard and needy, but nothing too intense for obvious reasons. He just didn’t know how else to express himself in the heat of the moment.]
My legs would fall asleep eventually, but I’d be okay with it. I figured you’d want to sleep in your own bed again, but I guess my lap is comfortable too.
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Nah, it's not that. I just want you to hold me for a while.
[ Admittedly, it's probably pretty sappy, but he just wants to feel regular, normal Nero against him and not... yeah. The thought causes him to shiver for a second, shifting in Nero's lap to lean a little harder into him. He has to make up for lost time since it's been forever since the last time they were together. ]
I can hold you in bed later if you wanna trade. [ So Nero gets a turn at being the little spoon. ]
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I can hold you as long as you want.
[His hands smooth over the back of Prompto's shirt idly as he just quietly appreciates being able to feel his breathing. And if he closes his eyes, even his heartbeat. Or is that his own?]
Yeah, I've been looking forward to being able to sleep beside you again. [He admits that a bit sheepishly. Not usually one to sleep through the night properly anyway, not having Prompto beside him made it worse. No one to look at when he couldn't get back to bed, and definitely not having any arms or legs draped over him made it more tricky to fall asleep in the first place.]
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