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i don't either

[ He stares at the words for the longest time, trying to figure it out, but even this break is messing him up. ]

can i ask you something?
like for real ask you
and promise you won't get upset or mad about it

[devilbreak]

Yeah, ask me anything..

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maybe i should have asked this earlier but um
why do you wanna be with me??

[devilbreak]

What?
Because I love you, and you're amazing.

[Which probably isn't a real answer if Prompto wants to really know. The next few messages come maybe half an hour later because the words take a while to get right and Nero isn't really good at this shit. He can't help but think that V would know exactly what to say in this situation.]

The first time I met you, you were really cool despite things being weird. And you could have easily told me to fuck off once we got out of that spa room, but you stuck around. You invited me to live with you. You've always tried to help me. Even when I'm being an idiot, or a mess, or confused about where I stand with you. It's frustrating sometimes, but you even keep stuff to yourself to protect me from..being even more of an idiot.

You're kind to everyone. You're fun. You're crazy talented. You're sexy as hell. You're a badass. You're adorable. You're my best friend. I don't really know what I'd do with myself if I wasn't with you, which is insane, and also unhealthy, but I don't care.

[Okay that last part was not well thought through and he hit send before he could really have second thoughts about it.]

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[ It's probably everything he's wanted to hear and more, but even all of that doesn't help fill the hole of insecurity that's burned its way through his chest. Prompto reads those messages over and over, trying to figure out where to start. ]

i'm sorry

i guess i just wish i knew what to do
to fix all this stuff
and it's not because i don't care about you or anything
i hope you know i do
i'm worried that everything we've got won't be the same if we can't uh you know
if we can't have sex anymore
so i was worried about that too that you just wanted to be with me for that

it's all messed up and i hate it nero
i really miss you

[ Even if he has his own best friend there to help make him feel better, it's just strange. ]

[devilbreak]

Yeah, I know.
I don't know what to do either.

I want you close, but I'm scared I'll lose control of being myself again.
And I don't want to make you feel scared again. I hated that feeling.

AND I DONT CARE IF WE DONT HAVE SEX.
I CAN FIGURE IT OUT.

I can live without sex, but I can't live without you.

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out of everything i don't think i'm worried about that
i mean...
i know you wouldn't hurt me
at least not on purpose

[ And it's completely different compared to the times he'd been hurt intentionally. ]

i don't want you to be unhappy
i don't think i could deal with knowing i did that

[devilbreak]

I could never hurt you intentionally.
My brain is hardwired to do the opposite.
I think if the thing happened any other time, you wouldn’t have gotten scratched up so bad, and maybe all of this wouldn’t have happened as bad as it did..

At least we can avoid that situation easily.
I just assumed seeing me like that scared you, and I’m not sure yet whether I can control that enough that you wouldn’t have to see that again..

I’m sorry, but I’m going to be unhappy until you can safely come back home.
But like I said, I can’t force you to come back if you don’t feel ready.
I can only hope that you’ll feel ready one day.

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how easily?
i don't know a time we haven't uh you know
when we haven't been together i guess

[ Is that a stupid thing to worry about? ]

i can try to come back
i mean maybe for a night and see how it goes?

[devilbreak]

I mean, I might forget, but you won’t.
So in that sense it’ll be sort of easy?
I’d try to do better about it, too.

Even if it isn’t easy, I think it’s worth a shot.
We have to at least try.

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[ That's kind of the opposite of effort, but he feels like a third wheel staying with Noct now that Lunafreya is there. So... what choice does he have? ]

i know
then i'll see you tonight?
or tomorrow if you're busy

[devilbreak]

[Even if the decision is made because Prompto is picking the less shitty of two shitty options, Nero will take it as a win.]

I'm not busy.
Tonight is good!

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ok then i'll see you tonight
wanna watch a movie or something?

[ See what's on Lunatia cable TV and all that. ]

[devilbreak]

Sure. I’ll see what’s on.
What do you want for dinner?

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oh uh i dunno
we can have whatever i'm not picky

if you want me to bring something on my way over just let me know

[devilbreak]

I'll surprise you.

Also, don't worry. I'm not cooking.
I'm ordering out.

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cool
then i'll see you later?
just tell me if you change your mind on me grabbing something before then

[devilbreak]

Yeah, no.
I'll take care of everything.
Just, please come home.

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yeah just for tonight though

[ That's important since... well, he still doesn't know how he feels. ]

i'll see you soon

[devilbreak]

Yeah, I know.
See you.

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[ Strangely enough, he's anxious about this. It shouldn't be a big deal since nothing's going to happen, but Prompto is running over all these weird scenarios in his head anyway, not bothering to take anything with him since he's actually going to be staying at his house. It'll be nice to use his own shower and sleep in his own bed, and it'll be nice to see Nero too. (He hopes.)

And he shows up like he says he's going to, knocking even as he lets himself in. Strange, sure, but he doesn't want to catch him by surprise if he's in the middle of something. Which is also why he calls out to him too. ]

It's me! [ A pause as he wrestles with his shoes. ] Did you find anything good to watch?

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[The food had just arrived, so when there's knocking again he knows it can only be Prompto. Nero sets the table like a restaurant date, side dishes placed over the table while the main course was already set on the center of the plates. He literally had nothing else to do besides stress himself out worrying about all the possible worst case scenarios.

Nero stuff all of the negative shit away and puts on a smile to greet Prompto with.]

Yeah! There's a marathon of buddy cop action films on one channel and also some weird horror thing on another. [He gestures toward the table with the food.] But there's food if you want to do that first.

[It feels weird not greeting Prompto with a hug or a kiss, but he doesn't want him to feel more weird about being there than he probably already does.]

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[ The sad thing is... he was expecting Nero to try to be normal, so when he doesn't embrace him or kiss him, Prompto feels his heart sink just a little. But he tries not to dwell on it too much, deciding to make an effort to keep things normal by ducking around him and grabbing at one of the plates while gently elbowing Nero in the side. ]

Let's do both at once! We can figure out what to put on while we eat.

[ It's a compromise? Besides, he wants things to go back to normal, and he wants to be close to Nero too. The whole proximity thing is what he craves right now, more than anything, and he fixes his plate before urging Nero to do the same with a look. ]

You feel up to being scared tonight? [ He grins at him. ]

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[Nero is stuck between a rock and a hard place where not behaving normally could bother Prompto but behaving too normally my might trigger him. It’s a dance he’s have to figure out quickly to fix how things were between them now. Assuming they could be fixed.

He suppresses those feelings again, and figuratively charges forward with his plan to not so much wine, but definitely dine his boyfriend.]

Both at once works. [That’s truly the best option when they can put off choosing all together. Nero sits down to arrange what he wants on his plate, using the remote to turn the TV on before any eating actually goes on.]

I doubt any of that stuff is actually scary. Real life is scarier.

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[ Prompto sits next to him, keeping a fraction of space in case Nero doesn't actually want to be close. All of this still feels incredibly weird to him. ]

Oh come on! Some stuff can be scary. [ Probably not a good topic to be on, but whatever. ] You know, like ghosts and goblins and other crawly things...

[ There's a moment he almost blurts out 'monsters', but in real life, those are definitely a hell of a lot scarier than whatever they could come up with in a movie. Still, he settles back to eat, picking at what's on his plate as he watches Nero and the TV, trying to read the situation and hopefully not make it more awkward than it already is. ]