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Oh
Well I mean it in a good way.
I obviously wouldn’t mind having them in my mouth!

[Which also sounds odd, but this conversation has gone far beyond salvaging.]

Lets just start over.
Thanks for the eggs, next time I’ll make the breakfast.

[ Yes, please save him from this weird nightmare that isn't sexy. At all. ]

next time i won't have to worry about v being in the other room
but deal
i can make soup since i know i'm okay at that

Why do I fee like when you say “soup” you mean “instant noodles”?

no!!!
real soup
ignis taught me in duplicity
i think it's the only thing that i can make that isn't instant

Whoa.
I’m already impressed and I haven’t even tried it yet.

I definitely can’t make soup without those little flavoring packets.

don't be until you try it
maybe we should just learn how to do everything at some point haha
save ourselves the trouble

That's the most logical solution, and it also sounds like the most time consuming.
Maybe we can just start with learning to cook our favorite things.

Speaking of favorite things.
How long had you and V been talking about the three way relationship thing?

oh yeah that'd make sense

[ And he's about to type something else when those texts roll in. ]

uh we haven't?
i mean not until the night that stuff happened
i hadn't even told him how i felt cuz well you know

i thought it was something you wanted

So it was just something that came up?

It's not that I don't want to try.
I donno, I guess I just hadn't thought about it and it felt sudden to me.
And I figured that might have been because you two had time to think about it and talk about it, because you were both on the same page and I was lost.
But then I thought it wouldn't be a bad idea and was interested, but maybe too interested also, and still on the wrong page..
I'm trying not to overthink it, because if I do, it's hard to wrap my head around.

i can't really speak for v but i think we're on the same page because of you
i care about you a lot nero and i thought
i guess i just want you to be happy even if that means sharing you with someone else you have feelings for

[ Which makes him a hypocrite because... well, there's still a lot he hasn't told Nero. Mainly about him and Noct. But Prompto refuses to voice those feelings to Nero when he hasn't even said them aloud, so it doesn't really matter. ]

if it's too hard we don't have to do it
you know that right?
i get it and i'm pretty sure v would understand too

Because of me?
I guess it just doesn't feel that way for me.
The two of you get along well and are closer, and I.. feel like the odd one out.
V and I are hot and cold on our best days.

[He's actually not sure how close Prompto and V are or aren't. Most of this is presumption on his part, but it's not like they every really talked much about it anyway. Partially his own fault, most likely.]

I don't want you to share me if you don't want to.
Which is weird because I feel like the one who's sharing you, but it's probably a matter of perspective?

I know it isn't going to be easy. I'm not trying to quit after we agreed to try.
I just wanted [ to torture you and myself with my paranoia.] to understand.
I'm sure it'll be fine.

[ This is literally why he hates talking about anything. Explaining himself or his feelings is just too hard. ]

yeah because of you
otherwise... i dunno
i guess we'd just be friends or people who talk sometimes
we're not as close as you think
not yet anyway and that's why we're supposed to try this out
see where it goes

besides you guys have a lot more history than me
since you're from the same place and all
stuff like that's just gonna happen
but i'll try to help you understand if you tell me what you don't get

Oh, I thought for sure you two were closer than that. I guess I’m mixing up here and Duplicity..
And assuming shit that I shouldn’t..

A lot of that history is not based on honesty though, but..
I want to understand how you feel.
I want to know that you’re not doing this because I’m not enough for you..

[ Prompto stares at that message like he's been blindsided, the clench in his chest more than enough to keep his fingers still for several long minutes. What the hell. ]

why would you even say something like that
have i done something to make you think that?
and i don't mean this whole thing with v

Well I hadn’t had the thought before.
At least not to the point where I feel like I have to know if it’s true.
If you do, I wouldn’t be upset. I just want to know. I don’t want to feel left in the dark about things.
Not these things.

you didn't have the thought before but you're having now?

[ Shit, he didn't mean to type that. Now he's frustrated with himself. ]

i know you nero
you'd be upset or you'd do stuff like this
i really don't know what you want from me

[ ... he didn't mean to type that either, but oh well. There it is. ]

Sorry for not dismissing it as a stupid stray thought now that we’ve agreed to add a whole other person to our relationship.
Which, by the way is fine if that’s what you really want. I promise. We can make it work if you think it can.
You said you’re doing it to make me happy, but I was already happy with you. I want you to know that, and I guess I wanted to know that you were happy with me too.

Which is fucked up to ask now that I’m typing it..

I’m sorry. I don’t think I know what I want either.

Edited 2020-03-09 15:42 (UTC)

i know that
but i also know how you feel about v and obviously he feels something for you
i never thought about it as needing it to be happier cuz i thought we were already
it's just... i dunno
more?

[ That last part though... it really hurts, and now he's upset about a text that probably wouldn't have meant as much if they'd been talking about this in person. ]

maybe you should figure that out

I know that.
Well, I should know that.

[He looks at that last message for a while, not knowing how to respond at first. It’s hard to tell if Prompto is annoyed, upset, or something else just via text on a small screen.]

I’m sorry. I’ll take a few days and try to figure my shit out. It’s not fair that I keep throwing it at you and expecting you to make everything better for me.

[He starts to type “love you” but decides against it. Putting anyone else on the emotional roller coaster ride he’s on is shitty. They’d talk about it later.]

i never thought about it like that
but you CAN talk to me
i can't really tell if you're mad at me or v or yourself or maybe all three

i'm here if you need me though

[ Which is saying a lot considering how upset he is about all of this, maybe a little confused too, but... this kind of thing is a lot to get used to. Maybe he'd just figured it would be easy since he thought this was really what Nero had wanted. ]

[Talking to Prompto tended to help just about all the time. Too bad he felt like a complete downer and burden every time he had to talk about anything bothering him. Probably doesn’t help that he’s so aggressive about it either.

So in general he’s feeling pretty crappy for a few hours before he responds. No matter how mad at himself he is, there’s no way he can avoid someone he lived with for very long. Sure he’s ashamed of himself but it’s not enough to keep him from trying to make sure Prompto knows that he knows what he wants when it comes to him.]

Where are you? We should talk about this in person.
I don’t like how this feels...

[ And in that span of a few hours, when it's clear that Nero isn't going to message him back, Prompto... well. He sorts through all of their things and cleans their apartment. He'd never been particular about it, not so much a neat freak either, but the moving helps burn off the anxiety that comes from wanting to obsessively check his phone. Then, when he's done with that and still feels as if he has more energy to expend, he changes into some yoga pants and a light jacket to run.

He's in the middle of cooling down when he gets those alerts and frowns at the messages. ]

level 2 somewhere
went for a run
i'll head back to our place if you wanna meet me

Yeah, I’ll meet you there.

[He grabs a cheeseburger and fries to go as something of a peace offering before heading back to their place. On the way he formulates and rejects at least a dozen ways to apologize, but when he’s actually letting himself inside he’s no closer to knowing what he’ll say than when he left.]

You here yet? I brought you some food.

[ Prompto doesn't respond, deciding to take his time getting back, but even that doesn't have him losing to Nero, wandering into the kitchen for water as he sits and tries to catch his breath. He's sweaty, in definite need of a shower, and yet, he doesn't move from his seat even when he hears the door open and Nero's voice echo through their place.

This is such a stupid thing to be upset about; he doesn't even know why this is happening. ]

Yeah, in here. [ He calls out, taking another drink and making an effort to joke. ] Something light I hope...

Have you ever known me to do anything lightly?

[He puts the paper bag onto Prompro’s lap and takes a seat right next to him. Nero’s not bothered by sweat in the least. Especially not when he has something important he desperately wants to say.]

When I said I didn’t know what I wanted.. I wanted to make it clear that I want you. I always have and that won’t change. My brain just goes to weird places and I have a hard time seeing the obvious. I know you were happy with me. I shouldn’t have questioned that.

[He has a lot of buts and howevers, but this wasn’t the time for them. His insecurities shouldn’t have been the kindling to the fire of his baseless assumptions.]

Anyway, I was wrong, and an asshole. So I’m sorry..

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i’m sorry lmao

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